Did the cat have my tongue??

I would love to say yes because there is no good reason why I should have stopped writing. I have had so much going on that was definitely noteworthy for me to write about. The past few months have been somewhat like a rollercoaster and I have been forced to sit in the front row and deal with it.  In the meantime, while going through these changes I lost my voice to write. There is nothing worse than having things to get off your chest and denying yourself the liberty to do so. I am slowly recovering from this deadly form of loss of creativity. I have had plenty of time to collect my thoughts and get to the root of the problem.

The problem is that I suffer from wanting people to get but so close to me. My deepest darkest desires and feelings I struggle to share out of fear of judgement or misinterpretation. By being naturally private and contained my creativity suffers and as a result I internally suffer. I suffer because I am no longer connecting to people and am like a molotov cocktail waiting to combust at any moment. I have come to the conclusion that I must write and express myself by any means necessary. It is time to get over myself once and for all.

P.S. Special thanks to my readers that always ask about my writings. I appreciate the encouragement and feedback.

ali mo