Ughhh!!! I have been suffering from the worse case of sinuses this season. Typically, during the Spring season I deal with allergies and sinus problems. This season has been tough. I am constantly taking over the counter medicine trying to alleviate my symptoms. So today while on a Chai Tea break with a friend we started talking about my bout with sinus congestion. Can I just say that she saved the day…let alone my life?!! She told me about this neat thing called a Neti Pot. A Neti Pot is a ceramic pot that looks like a cross between a small teapot and Aladdin’s magic lamp. Needless to say, I beelined to Whole Foods to get my new best friend. I used it as soon as I got home. It was a little weird but I can definitely get use to it, especially if it is going to help me breathe. Say “HELLO” to my little friend…..THE NETI POT.
My dreams are becoming more prolific with every passing night. Last night I had a really vivid dream. It was great if I must add. For those of you that don’t know me personally; let me give you a little insight on one of the things in life that I love. I absolutely LOVE children!!! Everyday I wonder how old I am going to be when I have my first child. Anyway, God has blessed me with a God Son and his brother whom I love the same. I call them my nephews.
Last night I had a dream that my nephews came to visit me over the summer. It was just us and The Big City. They were so fascinated with the fast pace and bright lights. They loved riding the subway system. I ended up taking them to the Bronx Zoo and we had a ball. That trip really made my day as well as theirs. My nephews could only stay for a weekend because of my hectic work schedule. They went home happy and I started my work week fulfilled. 🙂
What do you think? This dream was pretty cool, right?
I will never forget seeing a net with hideous feathers hanging from a friends ceiling. I asked politely; what is that? He replied “it’s a Dreamcatcher” and went on describing what it was supposed to do. It was all too weird for me to believe in. This brings me to the topic of Dreams. It seems that on a nightly basis I am up dreaming. My dreams literally wake me up out of my sleep. Not to mention that my mind is on overload throughout the day. I wonder when my mind will ever get a good night’s rest. To answer my question…probably never.
After suffering a few losses back to back; I have decided to go full speed ahead with all of my dreams. As outlandish as some of them may seem to family and friends. I have always been told that nothing beats a failure but to try. I believe that with all of my heart. As some of you may know I lost my little cousin the end of August. He was very dear to me and I have had to ask myself “What would Mikey want me to do”? I honestly believe that Mikey would want me to just go for it. He would probably tease me if he sensed that I was scared to make a move, and I don’t ever want to be known as a scaredy cat…
Anyway, there are a few people that I would like to thank personally because you guys are my real life “Dreamcatchers”. Shout out to Moe Hammond,Elbie Inc., Shy Pink, Kia Chenelle, Nyesha Roberts, Resk ‘Que, Drenary Foster, Sakira Mahadeo, Leslie Monroe, Robin Finch, Melanie Kith Young, Tye Cole, Sherrell from 702, Ajani Truth, and last but not least Mom Dukes!! You guys are the best. I love you very much. Thanks for your unwavering encouragement and support. 😉
Lately I’ve been focusing more on relationships than usual. My dating life is wiggidy wack and has been that way for a few years now. I’m single by choice and somewhat by circumstance. The pickings are damn near slim to none and my current city is not one that I would recommend for dating. Males and Females recycle each other on a daily basis. I don’t want to date a dude that my friend’s, sister’s, mother’s, cousin used to date. The six degrees of separation is more like the two degrees of separation…….NOT A GOOD LOOK!!
This brings me to the drawing board. Do I continue to date for the sake of dating? Are my standards way too high for the average man to keep up with?? Should I explore other options?!?! I’ve always been a pretty open-minded person. Maybe it is time for me to branch out a little bit more…..
I hope you hear me God. I don’t want to meet another man who is afraid of his feelings and afraid to commit. I want a man who honors his commitments and is faithful. I do not want a man who is afraid to love and afraid to love me. I want a man who can communicate his deepest desires, fears, and feelings. I want a man who puts you first and has effectively trained his conscience to not be ran down by the ways of this world.
God I know that you are listening and you do want what is best for me. I promise that I won’t settle just for the sake of being in a relationship. I promise to always respect myself and take the exit if a man does not respect me. I promise to always listen to that inner voice called intuition when I feel like something isn’t right.
At this time I would like to Thank You. Thank you for giving me the wisdom and courage to walk away from situations that weren’t good for my soul. Thank you for always listening to me and giving me the strength to perservere when I may have wanted to give up. Above all thank you for LOVING ME. I will be patient and wait for my King.
Signed with Love,
Here I sit waiting for my hair to get done. I’m headed to New York today for business and a little pleasure. I want to look my absolute best. I’ve been very busy lately and have not had time for anything beauty related. Blessedly, I’m naturally beautiful and don’t have to try too hard if I don’t feel like it.
This month has started on a note of Solitude. Irritations seek to dampen my good mood on a daily basis. I cannot live like this. I am not trying to come across as unhappy because I am happy. I’m grateful for every experience and emotion that I feel because it means that I am alive. I need quiet time for reflection. I’ve decided to earnestly work on detaching myself from people, places, and things. It seems to be the only way to make it in this life. It is ALL or nothing at this point…